I wouldn’t tell you that it was magical, no, the way she smiled and turned her head to the side, glancing sideways at me.
My breathing didn’t change, I was forged in fires and tempered by vigilance.
I wouldn’t say it was supernatural or otherworldly, when she asked me to light her cigarette and cupped her palms around my hand, softly brushing my knuckles with her pinky.
She took a draw and the cherry glowed and as she pulled back she winked at me.
“Thank you,” she breathed around the smoke and I couldn’t remember the response, decades of polite conversation guidelines gone in one second,
but, no, I wouldn’t try to tell you it was poetic, or momentous, it was just a normal, ordinary, every day type of life-altering instance, boy meets girl, girl smiles,
boy forgets how to do the thing, with the words and the voice, that thing.
I couldn’t ask you to believe that love can really happen in a moment, at&first&sight. You’ve read the stories and you’ve seen real life and there’s no chance that you would take my story as something real.
The light through the window fell only and directly on her mouth, and I had to kiss her, and I knew I loved her when she said “Hi” and I knew that she loved me when I smiled, I knew that I could have asked her to go with me, for coffee, for a beer, for a wedding, for a lifetime, after three seconds.
I’m not asking you to believe this and hope that you’ll find that kind of connection.
Sixteen years and ten months later she sits next to me as I write of that moment, and I’ll read this to her as soon as I am finished.
I don’t need you to accept these words.